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I am a very easy to meet people, in other words, in fact, very low requirements on themselves. If a money let me be happy, I would never have to ask for two dollars. Similarly, if you have a friend, I no longer want to meet more people.

Probably like reading from the beginning, I was not getting good with people, and even for relatives to meet also feel embarrassed. Not their haughty, but they did not do and what to say, except to ask for greeting and everyday life. Originally it was only these topics it between relatives. But I do not like to be asked, "how exam ah", "After going to do ah," "have a girlfriend yet" and so on. There was a time, I even deliberately evade some family activities, of course, will not do so now, and just to behave like adults, but also to her mother happy. I avoided social behavior, had brought her great distress, I do not know how many times I reprimanded.

The reason will be indifferent to relatives, I also stems from an inner secret gap. After I grew older, their relatives are busy in their own hard life, the memory of the hour and solemn close ties disappeared. Peers marry and have children, elders become grandparents, I am no longer the focus of everyone's care. But that is not the case, relatives or the time to be the best of care, and a child is no different. Perhaps, I just want to go back to that memory has been blurred era, has been doing a carefree child ignorant of it.

I'm not lonely child that appeared in the movies, only to find companions in the doll or fairy tale. I would, and will play with their peers play in behind her sister and her peers, playing cards, hiking, fishing in troubled waters, playing games, firecrackers However, they all seem to indulge in my reading before things. Of course, when no one can be a play, I will watch TV for a long time, and finally suffering from high myopia. I do not know how other people's myopia is caused, anyway, my myopia has nothing to do with learning. Say this, just I want to get rid of the image of "nerd", although I did "stay", but preconceived ideas with those who are not the same.

High school, I wrote in the essay "On the lonely" This pretentious title, the beginning of the sentence is Aristotle's words - "like lonely people are not gods is the beast." Remember the reason for such a trivial matter, because teacher training cry. Now, I can bluntly say that I was actually afraid of lonely people, if loneliness can make people look different, I do not need to have the kind of unreal things. Before the kind of emptiness in the house when a man closed the book page or turn off the TV, it is still always hit me. I'll go to the library, not a love of learning, but simply unbearable a man alone in the dormitory.

There was a time when high school, I will search for some random stranger on the QQ, and then they get in a word, the release of inner emptiness. Now think of course, it is silly and stupid things, in addition to individual people, I have no desire to chat with anyone. Before do not understand why anyone would do so to resist strangers, all relationships are not familiar with it begins, wait until they also have the same mentality they would understand.

Like began to say, as long as there is a friend, for me it sufficient. Such a friend, even if not around, whenever you want to chat with him will get a response, it is possible? Everyone has their own life to focus, even male and female friends can not do it. A change in position, so if someone needs me, I was unqualified, after all, have been due to play the game and forget the appointment time thing.

I do not have much experience, but always think love is a troublesome thing. There is a reason that had to face her family and even friends. I do not want to introduce their friends to her, do not want to introduce her to a friend and did not want her friends to know specifically what a strange idea that it should not be. The two sides still have their own social circle, embraced at the intersection of time and space, and did not it enough?

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